happy notes

feeling well means feeling less jaded, less disappointed,
less mindful of what others have done,
of what you have undone,
less mindful of the brain’s poor reward system

means feeling less unapproachable,
less disgusting, less disgusted,
less likely not to catch yourself saying
at least is not snowing when it’s pouring
& your umbrella goes flying as if it were a kite,
as if it were a plastic bag meant to be recycled

it means not minding life on layaway, on an installment plan,
or feeling less likely to have yourself committed,
less likely to commit a crime or commit the unthinkable,
the unfathomable,
or feeling less prone not to commit to someone,
not to commit to a lost cause or some jekyll & hyde,
dream/nightmare combination

it means (well, you get the pic)

c. a. campos, 2012